if we close our eyes

stayed at home all day
woke up at 9:30 for no reason
slept at 1 last night.
stupid body alarm.

uploaded photos on facebook
helped mum with random errands
clari came over
and we stalked some guys that she's interested in
we met them at clubbing
one of them looks like gary
basically did crap all.

my back is achey.
stupid period.

it could just be me and you

changing lanes

i haven't updated here in ages.
wondering if you still read this.
i hope, yet i don't.

when i was washing the dishes
listening to mraz and caillat sing lucky
set me off again tonight

i thought your party was on dec 16
so i was devastated not to be here
but only just realised that
bourbon.
i wonder if you're going.
i really really really wish i were.
really.
so bad.

that night was fun.
sick, but fun.

going through some bad times at the moment
money
relationships

wishing

i wonder how you're doing
hope you're well
taking care of yourself
and the babies
hope they're not up to too much mischief
hope training is going well
hope you're having fun hanging out with your boys
hope you're enjoying your holidays

that taylor swift video was so cute (:
t-swizzle

love story
making you listen to it in peter green's room
and getting frustrated cos you weren't listening to the lyrics
those were times
good ones

i've been trying to keep myself busy.
from thinking so much.

hanging with family
the girls
hannah
wayne
uni friends
clarise
he's not in sydney
hasn't been for a while.

last night i went clubbing with clarise
it was fun
met some girls who were nice
nearly got in a fight with one who wasn't
clarise got a number
it was cold

today i stayed at home
went to visit hannah in the arvo
watched desperate housewives

i don't know what i should and shouldn't say here.
i don't want to make things worse for you.
or maybe you're over it by now.
over me.
over us.
in which case i'm happy for you (:






i know i'm not ready to.

i don't even know what to think anymore.

miss you.

i keep thinking of more and more things i want to say to you.

i can feel 'em flying

what goes around

so sick of drawing
aaapples
my teacher is absolutely insane
thirty is just unbelievable

eating butter menthol
my throat hurts ):
getting sick in time for the holidays
hooray.

you know what's kind of gross?
kneadable erasers.
they're kind of oily... in the greasy kind of way.
eeew.

ananya called today
it was awesome to catch up with her
can't wait to see the girls soon

it's funny
everytime i begin writing a post
some eerily appropriate song begins to play

wish you never did me wrong

things i'll never say

i just sent photos of hannah
if you've blocked me, will you still receive my emails?

i miss you.

words inside my head

how we were

i stayed at home
and did drawings
30 drawings of an apple
due this friday

my throat is itchy
i'm getting sick

i saw photos of jorren's
i hope you had a good time

i know that i need to stop saying certain things
cos it just makes it hurt more
but i want you know that
my heart aches

one day
i'll figure me out

the conscience never fades

sutto fukaku made

i'll be overseas from Nov 18 - Dec 23
):
i'll be going to vietnam and hong kong with mum
but to be honest, i don't really want to go
but mum wants to go see grandma

i really really wish i could be here.

sunao ni narenai nara

yesterday's child

went to the zoooo today

it was raining again

but didn't see any animals mating though ):

you think that's where it's at