changing lanes

i haven't updated here in ages.
wondering if you still read this.
i hope, yet i don't.

when i was washing the dishes
listening to mraz and caillat sing lucky
set me off again tonight

i thought your party was on dec 16
so i was devastated not to be here
but only just realised that
bourbon.
i wonder if you're going.
i really really really wish i were.
really.
so bad.

that night was fun.
sick, but fun.

going through some bad times at the moment
money
relationships

wishing

i wonder how you're doing
hope you're well
taking care of yourself
and the babies
hope they're not up to too much mischief
hope training is going well
hope you're having fun hanging out with your boys
hope you're enjoying your holidays

that taylor swift video was so cute (:
t-swizzle

love story
making you listen to it in peter green's room
and getting frustrated cos you weren't listening to the lyrics
those were times
good ones

i've been trying to keep myself busy.
from thinking so much.

hanging with family
the girls
hannah
wayne
uni friends
clarise
he's not in sydney
hasn't been for a while.

last night i went clubbing with clarise
it was fun
met some girls who were nice
nearly got in a fight with one who wasn't
clarise got a number
it was cold

today i stayed at home
went to visit hannah in the arvo
watched desperate housewives

i don't know what i should and shouldn't say here.
i don't want to make things worse for you.
or maybe you're over it by now.
over me.
over us.
in which case i'm happy for you (:






i know i'm not ready to.

i don't even know what to think anymore.

miss you.

i keep thinking of more and more things i want to say to you.

i can feel 'em flying